When
you are unemployed, well, unemployable more so, student you need few
things to live right. You need your existential crisis, anxieties,
depressions and doubts to put you into the right state of mind to
begin with. After that by far the most important item is pot, to this you
need to add garlic bread, flapjacks, onion rings (shit, I ran out of
those), tobacco, a lot of movies to watch, classics, you know? Fear
and loathing in Las Vegas, Trainspotting, Requiem for a Dream… Then
you need papers and pen to write down your brilliant ideas when you
reach the point when a simple high becomes spiritual experience and
of course something to make them stick to the walls so you can be
surrounded by them at all times. Then black tea to drink all day,
every day some coffee to sip once in a while even though it´s cold
as fuck, not a good word fucks are usually
pretty hot but whatever, and sugar to make
all of these sweet when life is bitter. And of course non-stop access
to online porn. And tissues. That´s essential.
What
is just as important is great music, now, there´s a variety and each
is fitting for each high, for your inspired and creative one I for
sure recommend 50´s bebop jazz, for the more chilled out ones when
you feel like discovering new layers of our planet´s atmosphere´s
there´s nothing like Pink Floyd and classical rock in general Carry
on Wayward son by Kansas, Africa by Toto or fucking Smoke on the
Water. Or Tame Impala if you want something new. Some of us romantic
folks get emotional after a good smoke, for those we have, if you
fancy something for hipsters of twenty-first century, Cigarettes
After Sex. Then there´s the classical silly happy high, I usually go
for last centuries pop-songs, my favourite at the time is Cher´s
Believe.
This
lifestyle will get you through, just a little bit of smoke before
lecture to raise your interest for the subject, then more to reward
yourself for being a good student and attending. Then you realise
that you have some deadlines, we may be talking about creative
courses, that is not an easy thing to do, right? We need something to get
our ideas flowing, I mean, no good can ever come from sober art.
Also there
are habits that healthy person has, you need to eat properly for example and
some magical grass always makes you want something, at the end of the
day, it´s hard to be hungry when all you do all day is wallowing in
pity and office chair.
British
weather is treacherous, so when you are making a trip to the garden
to smoke every hour or two shit happens and you get sick. That´s not
fun, you know, not at all, your stomach will try to kill you, you
cannot attend lectures anymore, you cannot sleep anymore, you cannot
move anymore, you cannot enjoy music or movies anymore, you can´t
eat anymore. Believe me, I have experienced this for four or five
days, you cannot lie down cause you´d throw up, then you run to do
it but you can´t so you just choke and don´t feel any better, you
can´t sit alone in your room because what made you feel great before is making you
anxious now and then all there is left to do is storm out to your
smoking garden, punch the wooden gate and walk around shaking for
endless minutes, hours, days…
But
don´t worry, everything has it´s silver linings, I feel like after
this traumatic time I´ve lost about half my weight and I could
finally see myself in the mirror but I think my eyes are too red and
closed to do so.
There
is also one more important thing to have and that is a friend to
share this all with, all the great ideas and mind journeys, brilliant
films and excellent music, someone who can appreciate this just as
much as you do and relate to the troubled times you often have to
live through on the way. Someone just as existential and doubtful about everything.
Looking
back at this list, I think I have it all. Good. Except for the onion
rings. Shit.
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